The theatrics of night and mind

I was anxious, even as a child. Especially as a child. Nights were the worst. I could not – and still cannot – sleep without a light on somewhere in the house, except when my husband is next to me, and even then I still prefer one on. When little, if I woke in the…

You would’ve turned 60 today

Dad and me. Still at the hospital after I was born You would’ve turned 60 today. But six months ago you died. Six months tomorrow. I have your birthday card here. I stockpile them during the Christmas sales for the people I need to remember for the year ahead. It is one of my usual sort of…

Brace yourselves – these will be a bumpy few days

The evening before we left my parents house to return home at Christmas, my father said to Keira, “I think I’m going to cry when you leave.” My mother told me this just before we drove off in the car, and I watched for his tears, waited for them, but he kept his composure. Saying…